Tuesday, March 9, 2010

An Intro to my Extro

I think that I may just maybe may be turning into an extrovert. I'm not quite sure yet, time will tell, but here are my reasons why:

1. Since I stopped watching television, I find that I have more time to be alone with God. Because of this, I'm recharged a lot more often. Therefore, I am able to be with friends for longer periods of time, listening, sharing, laughing, and just cutting up.

2. I actually have friends. Not that I didn't before, but I just was not sure if they were honest-to-goodness friends. But they've stuck by me, even though they may not see me or talk to me that often, because I live out in the middle of nowhere and have 4 classes this quarter. They don't care about that, because they truly do care about me.

3. My friends LISTEN. I still do the whole introvert thing of processing my thoughts more through journaling, blogging, and pondering. But my friends actually ask me questions, and I find that they aren't having to pull things out of me as much. The reason behind them having to tug and pull before was because I would be wondering, "Do they really want to listen to what I'm about to say?" But now I find that it can hard for me to shut my mouth when I'm around them.

5. God told me that He doesn't want me to be alone, and to let His people be kind to me. On Sunday, I had lunch with a couple of new friends. It was our first time hanging out and getting to know each other. They told me that they wanted me to call them and hang out with them some more, especially since I was in the boonies and genuine human contact on a deep, spiritual level is rare. As I left though, I started having all of these thoughts like, "They didn't really mean that." But then I realized that this was an attack from the enemy, and God immediately said, "Yes! Let My people cherish you. After all, I cherish you, why shouldn't they?"

So that was all about my self-worth.

Something else I've realized is that my #1 Love Language is when people really listen to what I share about myself. I tend to listen to what other people are sharing, because I find people interesting, but then some will completely dominate the conversation. And it's hard for me to put myself out there, but when I do, and when people listen and we have a genuine conversation...let's just say I'm going to love you forever and always. I become that dog from the movie, Up. "I have just met you, and I love you."

I'm not exaggerating.

So being suddenly and completely surrounded by people who really love ME, and not just the person I may let them see, is really turning me into a talker. WOOT!

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