What do I want to do? What is going to make me happy? What makes me feel alive?
What do I want to do with my life again? hm?
Jesus told me yesterday that the question was not what I SHOULD do but what I WANT to do. He said that my true desires are much greater than I realize right now. They are also not coming to mind...I've been drawing a complete blank for the past year.
I watched Stranger Than Fiction with my brother, Jon, yesterday. Dude, we loved it! One of the characters is named Ana, and her story really made me start thinking.
Ever since 2010 rolled around, I've been hearing DESTINY in almost every prophetic word I've gotten. Caleb saw the word written on my forehead this past weekend. Last night, I was at the brothers' house (a few of my guy friends all live in the same house), and they suddenly start saying "You have a purpose, Jenny. You have a destiny", randomly, not even knowing they are reading my mail for the day. And this was after my conversation with Jesus, which I had in the car on the way home from watching Stranger Than Fiction with Jon.
Jesus is still setting me up, everyday, to keep my thinking about this. Honestly, Jesus, I can't figure out what I want to do or what is going to make me happy. So I'll just sit at Your feet till I do.
You know, I'm wondering if the problem is my dreams are so big I don't think I can accomplish them. I'm going to sit on that for a while.
Everytime that I try to think about what He could have for my life, even working off of my desires, it blows mind. I just can't wrap my head around it. There are a number of things that I'd like to do/have in my life. The ones that He's brought through or started have been beyond awesomely perfect. WAY BEYOND anything that I could EVER imagine. And let me tell you, I've certainly got an imagination. :P
ReplyDeleteGod. Is. BEYOND AWESOME in His plans for us!!! :D:D
Don't forget it! :D