Sunday, January 16, 2011
"I chose this."
When I was in the prayer room last night, I had a WONDERFUL experience and I felt compelled to share!
I had been dancing for a while, when suddenly the heavens opened and the atmosphere shifted so quickly that I felt Jesus had rushed down through the opening to join me. His presence was so full and it filled me up completely. All I could do was sit down and just breathe in this concoction he had decided to spoon out over me.
As I sat there, He began to speak to me three words over and over. "I chose this."
"I chose this. Jenny, I chose this for you. I chose for you to be here, in this moment. I chose this."
I was flooded with the most peace I have ever experienced, just knowing in the very core of my spirit that I was in the right place at the right time.
Then, other times and parts of my life (mostly dark times that I had lived through) started coming to mind, and He pointed out each one and said, "I chose for you to be there. The circumstances may have not always been my will, but I chose for you to be there in those circumstances. You were able to do my will within those times. I had a purpose for you every time, during each circumstance. It was for good that I placed you there. I chose this. I chose this."
I was almost in shock as I sat there and reviewed my life with Jesus. "You have given your life over to me, and because of this, I am able to choose. I chose this. I chose you."
I started thinking about something that I had been worrying about a couple hours earlier, and wondered what I should do with it. Jesus interrupted my thoughts and said, "I carried all of your worries, all of your shame, all of your fear to the cross. I carried it all! You don't need to carry it anymore. It died with me a long time ago and was buried. I carried it for you to the cross.
Just when I thought I could not POSSIBLY experience more peace in this moment, a ton more was poured out in me as I let go of a lot of weight I had not realized I was carrying.
"Don't carry those things anymore, lay it down. I have much different things for you to carry."
I know it sounds weak, but all I could think when I heard that last sentence was, "Whoa."
"I have much different things for you to carry."
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the purposes that I am purposing for you", declares Jehovah. "Purposes of peace and not for evil to give you a future and a hope."