Sunday, July 10, 2011

My story of gratitude! God is so in control of things. We just have to leap.

Hello fellow friends and followers! I received a job today!

I walk in to the store (clothing store) on Thursday to turn in my job application, and immediately score an interview. After the interview, I drive to class, but my car stops working. So I hoof it the rest of the way to class (I'm only a block or two away, fortunately). By the time I get there, I'm a sweaty mess, and ready to just...I don't know. Just not DO Statistics. But I sit through class anyway (my teacher is pretty cool btw. I think I'm going to enjoy the class), but I'm frazzled, and my mind keeps flitting back to the interview and my car.

The next day I take the personality survey online that my interviewer referred me to. I feel like I passed, but I also feel like I don't have the job experience to get the job anyway. There are a lot of doubts in my mind whether or not I can do this, or any job in retail. There are a lot of things I don't know about selling clothes, but I know that I can do it once I learn. I'm sure of it...but then the next second I'm not.

Friday and Saturday I try not to think about any of it. My car gets towed, and I decide to just forget about the job interview, because getting my hopes up seems cruel. I had already gotten turned down from another job just a few days prior. Why think I should get this one?

Saturday evening, I'm thinking of just sinking the idea of getting a retail job altogether. Why try when I get rejection shoved in my face every day? It isn't worth it. I don't want to give up, but I know that I can go to the career center at school and get a job through them, since I already grabbed my Associate's Degree. But should I? I had really thought God had pointed me towards retail for the challenge and satisfaction of working so hard for something. But I have had my doubts lately that I'm even hearing God half the time.

And what about the dream I had a month or so ago. Moshe and Josiah were in it, actually. They both said, "It is all waiting for you!" Where was it then if it was waiting? It seemed to be hiding.

Today comes. Mom is meeting her friends for a get together. They'll be praying, eating, worshiping, and for some reason, I don't want to go this time. It doesn't make sense. I hear God say, "No. Stay here." So I stay, even though I'm not even sure that I'm hearing God lately.

Mom leaves, I go upstairs. My phone is ringing. I let the voice mail pick up. I decide to check it right away, and hear "Jenny? This is Kaylee. You passed the personality survey. I was calling to ask when you could come in to fill out paperwork."

"Holy Crap!" I almost drop the phone, but I call back quickly. I don't even let Kaylee know that I heard her message, wanting her to say it again. She repeated her message verbatim. Holy crap. I got a job.

"My car is in the shop, so I don't know when I'll get it back so I can come in..."

"I'm off till Wednesday, can you come then?"

"That's perfect! I should have my car by then."

"Great. If anything changes, just call and let us know."

"Okay, thanks."

I hang up, and frantically call people. I'm more nervous than excited about getting the job, especially with my negative thoughts I have been having the past couple of days. People on the phone congratulate me. Mom says something about filling the forms and writing zero...something. I'm not paying attention.

I go upstairs and Josiah calls. Weird timing. I pick up.

"Hey! How's it going?"

"Well, I just got a job!"

"No kidding! At *name of store I got the job at*?"

"Yeah, but wait, how did you know that?"

"Because someone there called me an hour ago as your reference!" (Josiah was my supervisor during one of my internships last summer. We worked with inner-city kids.)

"No way! Oh my gosh! What did you say?"

He apparently said the right thing.

To celebrate, him and Chris pick me up, and swoop me away to the lake. Freedom once again, and no need to worry, because God has it taken care of. Why do I doubt?

I worshiped alone on my guitar tonight, feeling so much gratitude. I heard, and then sang this phrase.

"You gave me Your kingdom without blinking an eye.
You said, 'Give it a try, give it a try.'"

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