Thursday, July 22, 2010

Closer to the truth

I'm still afraid of getting really close to people. I don't want to "need" them or "depend" on them. And annoying them or taking up too much of there time seems inevitable if I start to. These are awful lies! Such an attack from the devil. If I have proper boundaries, then life is fine.

I know the truth. God loves to love me through His children. But here is what I am realizing, do I love to love them? Do I, myself, have selfish motives when I am around these people? I've realized I do, most of the time. So we're working on that. I want a pure heart that does not seek to take as much as it gives.

I've been on this huge Relient K kick lately.


  1. I have SO been there, Jenny. And I'm still working on it. God has been so good to use His kids to teach me how to push through it. That I am worth the time, that I'm not annoying. I've bought into those exact same lies, and that's exactly what they are: Lies, straight from the father of all that crap.

    Actually, I wrote some similar stuff just last night, in my blog. The new post titled "Letting Go", if you want to check it out.

    Believe me, you're not annoying, we need to hang out like we talked about at one point, and I love you!

  2. Thanks so much for the encouragement, sister! I had just read your blog before I saw your comments, thanks so much for sharing your heart!

    And I agree with my whole heart! We need to hang out. We've been saying it for a year now lol I love you!